Endless bedtime pep-talk

I am in bed now, getting ready for sleep… but a million thought just rush in and I am feeling overwhelmed.

So many thoughts, majority of them are unnecessary before bedtime, others are self-critical and the rest are a bush of thoughts of total surprise of how unaware and immature some people in my life are! But as I said, unnecessary thoughts!

In meditation they tell you that when you sit comfortably to focus on your breath you will find your mind drifting away in chaos. You need to teach yourself how to calm your mind and refocus on your breath everytime your mind wanders. However, sometimes you find that there is a reoccurring thought, the same thought, everytime, on different days, so the only thing that is left for you to do so you can calm your mind is to face that thought! Keep breathing but tune in to that thought, breathe in and breathe out while you are looking at this thought, examining it, keep breathing because it will help you to look at the thought from a different perspective.

Picture this; you are meditating while your eyes are closed, breathing in, you see a timeline, or just a straight line and there is that thought that pops out in a bubble. You see the line, you aren’t in the line, the line is below you but you are before the bubble, tell me how do you feel? Now as you see the bubble, go inside the bubble, how does it feel? Loud? Too much to handle? Focus on your breathing… Let’s now get out of the bubble, again go up as you see the line is below you, and the event is directly below you, so you are looking at it from up, what do you see? How does that feel?… feeling better? Okay… let’s move forward now, so you are past the bubble (the thought, the event, whatever is in the bubble), so now look at it from where you are, what do you see? How do you feel?! Continue to breathe in and breathe out equally.

Sometimes all it takes for you to notice that you are in charge of your own storm is to look at thoughts, actions, decisions, fears, or the situation from different perspectives. Dig deeper at our own contribution to the situation, why did you do or act the way you did! When you know why, you will understand how to control your thoughts and be in charge of your actions. And at the end of the day, you are not meant to control life, or anyone around you. You are only meant to learn how to control the chaos within yourself, and focus on your blessings and where you want to be in life. And of course know your limits, boundaries and values, and be smart to know the difference between them so you don’t make yourself a prey for those who seek chaos and manipulation and toxic patterns to blame others.

Be strong, be kind to yourself before others, and always listen to your inner being and heart. The heart knows more than the mind, the ego and your pride. And know the difference between tired and done. Remember that everything is transient, the good days and the bad days. Nothing lasts forever, learn to be resilient, yes cry when you need it, and most importantly believe that everything will be okay if you are learning from your own mistakes, being accountable and moving forward with a positive growth mindset.

And Goodnight!